Monday, Monday

Why does it seem to get harder to get out of bed each morning? I am so done with this adulting malarky. If a lottery win could head my way I would be forever grateful. I am so tired all the time, its a genuine effort to just function on a day to day basis. I just know I should go to the doctors to get all my levels checked but as bad as it sounds I can't be dealing with it. 

I have to go to Leeds tomorrow for a training day. I have to get on a train, by myself, and walk into a different store full of unknown people. That is a huge deal for me. My anxiety is in overdrive just thinking about it. I have also had to stress about lunch. My relationship with food isn't great and when I am anxious I don't eat, but I can't go to a different store for a day and not take a lunch as I would then be anxious about not eating!  Full freakin circle. I am also recovering from a cold, which has left me with one of those coughs that makes you choke on nothing. I was on the phone to a customer today and I had to quickly tell them I would call them back as I could feel the cough starting. I had to run off the shop floor and only just made it to the toilet before it made me sick.

Oh well, another day tomorrow.