Freakin Weekend

The weekend is here and I have tomorrow off. Its Mothers Day tomorrow. We will go and see my mum-in-law in the morning, then my husband is taking me to see our daughter and then we are going out for a meal with my mum, sister and brother-in-law. For the only day off I get on a weekend, its a busy one! Be nice to see everyone though. 

I haven't seen my daughter for so long, even though she only lives half an hour away. She is my step-daughter but she calls me mum, which I love. I came into her life at a very turbulent time and it took us a while to get to know each other and get used to each other but now we are very close. She said the day I married her Dad was the happiest day of her life and that means so much to both of us. She is a grown woman now, settled with a partner of her own, but she will always be my little girl. There is only 16 years between us in age, so I always made it clear to her that whatever she wants me to be at that moment in time is what I am. If she needs mum I am mum, if she needs a big sister then I am that, if she needs a best friend I am that too. She knows she can talk to me about anything with no judgement and I am so grateful for that. We are going to have a mother daughter day soon, its been way too long since we have done that. We bonded over our mutual love for Gilmore Girls. It was something I knew she would love that I shared with her and it became our thing. Now she is the Rory to my Lorelai and I wouldn't want it any other way.

In a big subject change, I am watching the new Louis Theroux documentary on Netflix about the manosphere. I knew the male influencers were bad news but oh my god..... I cannot quite believe what I am watching. These men are absolutely disgusting. There are lads out there, kids even, idolising these "men". I use inverted commas because you cannot call them men, not in my eyes anyway. I fell so sorry for the girls in their circle, they are clearly trapped. Threatened with the loss of money, fame and popularity. They just come across as women hating, misogynistic, racist, homophobic, anti-sematic. There are some very big followings of these men on these platforms and that is quite a scary thought. I have seen some of these people of my feed when I am doom-scrolling and it just angers me every single time I see them, but that's what they want! They want the controversy, they want the clicks, the views, the likes. They want to rule the world. Lets face it, it feels like one of them is already in charge of a certain country. Too many Tate followers, the blokes been done for human trafficking, why do lads want to worship someone like that??? I just don't understand it. My husband has old fashioned, wholesome values. If we could afford it I wouldn't be working, I would be looking after the house and I wouldn't mind that. I don't mind that way of thinking. But, he wouldn't be trying to control me, forcing a one sided monogamy relationship on me, asking me what my body count is. Its just so disgusting!! I can't imagine my daughter being younger and growing up in a world full of men like this.