I HATE Christmas Shopping

I have been on every single website, looking at all the Black Friday offers, trying to get all my Christmas Shopping done before December. I have done so much more than I thought but now I am completely out of ideas of what to get people!! The deals I have found though are amazing, so I am really glad I started shopping way earlier than I normally do. Being signed off work does have it perks. 

I am so stressed and tired today. I didn't feel right last night, my breathing felt worse than it has done and my face was red hot. My health anxiety kicked in and that was it, I spiralled. I spent most of the night laying there convincing myself that there was something seriously wrong. Can barely keep my eyes open today. People don't realise how tiring anxiety can be. So now I am sat here doing more Christmas shopping and watching the 90's classic, Muriel's Wedding. If you haven't seen it, you must. Its cinematic perfection! I always forget that its Toni Collette playing Muriel too, she looks so different, and hearing her native Aussie accent is so different too. Another film of hers I like is Connie and Carla, its a very camp guilty pleasure and I am the only person I know who has seen it! Add it to your list if you like drag queens and musicals.

I don't know what to do for dinner tonight, I haven't got anything out the freezer and there is nothing fresh in the fridge. We are meant to be going to do a big shop when Darren finishes work, but it takes me twice as long to walk round the shop at the moment and I am so tired I don't think I have got the energy on a good day. 

Casper has been amazing company the last few days, he always is. He has been so clingy but in a really sweet way, every time I pick him up he snuggles in and falls asleep on me. Its so cute. 

He went for so many years not wanting to be picked up, and not wanting to sit on your lap or next to you on the sofa but since lockdown he loves it. He has snuggle routines! He is such a good boy.